February 2010

sometimes you look upon something and it changes

changes back to what you once remembered

then all of a sudden of unknown courses there

you see it and it amazes you like always

why did it take so long for you realize it

you think that it was not supposed to occur

oh the beauty of this thing

ever changing as you gaze

you look upon this wondrous life thing

it removes any doubt

with wonder and innocence

everything you can imagine

it changes again and again

back to what you first remembered

it did make you feel like shit

and you recall it oh so well

look at it again and think this is shit

pure crap

move your fingers across it and remember

this is how it happened; it is what there is now

look at this thing again and wonder could it make a difference?

think of everything that makes you feel good

but it doesn’t work anymore

because it is all the same

and it will always be that way and you can’t change it


Hanging upside down by a mere thread

Aching to the bone from the pressure

Of life

Desires that cannot be met

Only with the wave of the wind on my hair

Blowing countless thoughts through me

Sending subtle messages into my brain

Of desire

Hanging on the edge with no rope

Swelling at the joints from the strain

Of wishes

That never come true

Only the hope that these ridiculous

Things will eventually go away

Scratching my skin with their poisonous needles

Of pain

Endless conclusions storming at my door

Making me want more life

So that I may hang upside down and not fall off

Once again to my dark side

being fluffy just doesn’t do it

dark dark dark

now that works!

Angst with the wind
Whippoorwills in apple trees
Trepidation at hand
Circumstance beyond your control
Swallow watermelon seeds
A naturalist on the red clover patch
Yesterday in a mangled forest
Leadbelly in a jailhouse
Jackhammer on concrete on a New York City sidewalk
Biblical characters have come to life
On a groundswell of phosphate
Caustic intentions with the sun
Decadent lifestyles lived out loud
Roosevelt wearing a purple sash it says: Bring me Indian genitalia
Homophobic men wear women’s lingerie
Yosemite Park with hot spitting geysers
Eyes black and shiny as onyx
Two dark holes in a cranium
A sawed-off shotgun in his bedroom
Shoot a car salesman in the crotch
Too proud and looking for an escape
Inside-out as an old sweater
Eyeglasses covered with blue funny fuzz
Homicidal tendencies come from the soul
Take an aspirin 27% less cerebral swelling
Go out on an apex with only 2 farthings
Hydroponics cannot be extended to reach your bloodstream
Oh such largess to be had at hand

living in suburbia

in ranch style houses

on manicured lawns with lawn jockeys

black as coal: lighting their way

racist pigs, pretending their not

arguing every evening over martinis

about infidelities

while children hide in closets

fearful of being beaten

womanizing husbands, handsome and muscular

trashy housewives, too much makeup and breasts too big

children cruel, torturing small animals

dirty faces and snotty noses

go to church on Sunday


god will forgive your sins

return to your lives





all hidden behind their domestic bliss

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Can you live like that

(without love)


no  show of affection

no laughter

no smiles

without warm caresses

without soft kisses

without friendship

only meaningless sex

with people you don’t know

disease circulating in your veins


you might die

all alone with nobody at your side

what happened to you?

did you miss something as a child?

when did that occur?

out of the womb

on to the cold concrete

fear of not being warm

into a world as callous as you

on to the train

in a world full of hate

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