And in your heart you remember

Bagpipes resonating in your body

Sounds of the land-your family

Remember

Tap-tap twice on the left heel and tap-tap on the right heel

Forward, backward

Repetition 2,2, and kick

This is how they taught me in the New York pubs

All of us in a circle

The grownups swilling beer

Laughing, singing and having a good time

Till it was time to close the pub

 And all hell broke loose

Punching, screaming, crying

Let’s just get on home

Get some rest

You have had too much to drink

Tomorrow is another day

We will wake with clear heads

Feel so ashamed

Till next St. Patrick’s Day

Entwined in an unbreakable embrace

No one

Nothing

Can separate us

We live together in a hurtful world

Where no one can divide us

Nothing

No one

Can make us disbelieve

We love each other

On a sideways journey

Unstoppable

Unknown

Unfelt by anyone

We will never part

We belong together

Forever

Waiting for the 6pm to arrive

                                                  Volatile and insecure

There’s no reasoning

Being trapped inside an elevator

Waiting for the repairman who never comes

                                                                              claustrophobic and suffocating

You can’t escape

 A  pain you have always had

But try to heal with a shaman

                                                  The pain is unbearable

You want cool lakes with sunshine and beautiful animals surrounding you

Innocent things to let you forget

To be free of the chains of someone else’s fears

To have to live with them is more than you can stand

                                                                                             escapist that’s what you are

Looking for peace of mind that doesn’t exist

changes back to what you once remembered

then all of a sudden of unknown courses there

you see it and it amazes you like always

why did it take so long for you realize it

you think that it was not supposed to occur

oh the beauty of this thing

ever changing as you gaze

you look upon this wondrous life thing

it removes any doubt

with wonder and innocence

everything you can imagine

it changes again and again

back to what you first remembered

it did make you feel like shit

and you recall it oh so well

look at it again and think this is shit

pure crap

move your fingers across it and remember

this is how it happened; it is what there is now

look at this thing again and wonder could it make a difference?

think of everything that makes you feel good

but it doesn’t work anymore

because it is all the same

and it will always be that way and you can’t change it

Aching to the bone from the pressure

Of life

Desires that cannot be met

Only with the wave of the wind on my hair

Blowing countless thoughts through me

Sending subtle messages into my brain

Of desire

Hanging on the edge with no rope

Swelling at the joints from the strain

Of wishes

That never come true

Only the hope that these ridiculous

Things will eventually go away

Scratching my skin with their poisonous needles

Of pain

Endless conclusions storming at my door

Making me want more life

So that I may hang upside down and not fall off

being fluffy just doesn’t do it

dark dark dark

now that works!

in ranch style houses

on manicured lawns with lawn jockeys

black as coal: lighting their way

racist pigs, pretending their not

arguing every evening over martinis

about infidelities

while children hide in closets

fearful of being beaten

womanizing husbands, handsome and muscular

trashy housewives, too much makeup and breasts too big

children cruel, torturing small animals

dirty faces and snotty noses

go to church on Sunday

together

god will forgive your sins

return to your lives

cheating

lying

screaming

fighting

all hidden behind their domestic bliss

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(without love)

no  show of affection

no laughter

no smiles

without warm caresses

without soft kisses

without friendship

only meaningless sex

with people you don’t know

disease circulating in your veins

warning!

you might die

all alone with nobody at your side

what happened to you?

did you miss something as a child?

when did that occur?

out of the womb

on to the cold concrete

fear of not being warm

into a world as callous as you

on to the train

in a world full of hate